IM DOIN THIS SHIT TOO. Check out my thread and be nice to me! ;3;

the ♥ fanart love ♥ meme

Also this:


LULZ. But NO! I dont want to lose ANY Samurai Troopers ;3; I don't even think there is 10 to lose!

Also I was working on THIS GODDAMN THING for a while. So you should check it out and MAYBE REPLY TO MINE. :D

well i WAS going to do an artpost with all of the nothing i've done since ... march. (its been that long since an art post, jesus)

BUT i have porn in it, and I dont think I can have it in photobucket. SO YOU WILL ALL HAVE TO WAIT. (its mostly larsa and sherry) ... THOUGH NOT TOGETHER. THOUGH THAT MIGHT BE COOL? MAYBE.


.... its 5. time for bed. shut up now, lina.

I drew today gaiz!!! And its Akito the bestest character everrrrrr~~~ Happy birthday to me~ Happy birthday to meee~



God, he looks so DIFFERENT NOW. ITS AMAZING. This is proof my style is improving. COULD STILL USE SOME WORK. IT ALWAYS CAN. But its pretty neat to see how different he gets every time I draw him. XDD

BIRTHDAY TODAY! SIMS3 TODAY! BOY COMES HOME! I dunno what to be more excited for!!!! My zombie b-day got canceled, so I gotta find something else awesome to do. ): Any suggestions guys? I'm clueless.

UGH gotta be at work in 5 hours. ITS NOT EVEN WORTH IT ANYMORE!!! DDDD: Maybe I will have myself a nice birthday nap. OR PLAY MYSELF SOME SIMS FUCK YEAH WHO NEEDS SLEEP FUCK THAT SHIT YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH~~~

The first five people to comment in this post get to request a sketch of a character (or whatever) of their choosing from me. In return, they have to post this in their journal, regardless of their drawing ability level. If you absolutely can't draw, I don't see why you wouldn't be able to offer drabbles or icons or something instead.

I commeted to king_of_dunces' the other day and I realized that I hadn't posted up my part yet! SO HERE YA GO!

If you don't think I know the character, please provide a ref! O:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO hisui_yui
AND ALSO HAPPY MOTHERS DAY~!!! Oh mother of my child! <33 I hope its a good one ;3;
(I wish I knew how to do the little SPARKLIE TEXT, but wtv)

About 3 days til I leeeeave! I keep thinking its a whole month, but it's really just 3 weeks. What sucks is that even if I wanted to stay longer I gotta be back by the 4th because my dad is going out of town. And also to cali. (lol, JUST found that out. me = always the last to know) I kinda wanna see my family too (why my dad is going) but they live in socal ): I miss my cousins. ohhh well... I hope one day we can ALL go down as a family.

Kinda worked on my doujin. I still wanna do it!! I storyboarded and then drew some of the first page. Which is basically redrawing a page I already did in OC. It's also on paper. XD I can't work on comics in digital form. Sigh. It's kinda corny and perhaps a little too sweet for wesker/birkin. But you know what. WTVR. I hope I get to work on it a little more within the few days I have til I leave. Then when i get there maybe koko and i will actually... ya know. WORK ON IT. XDD

Anyway, i can smell the bbq from my room and I GOTTA GO EAT SUUUUM.
Have a good sunday errbody.

maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan never get to draw anymore. I should today. Hm. Got to do a little last night but it was in sai, and I wasn't done and i lost my layers ): So I had to make 3 diff saves. I dunno how Imma color that fucker now. XDD i really liked the lines, but I know I wanna go lineless in some places. BAH. Need a permanent good version of Sai. D: I love that program so much. SOOOO SMOOOOTH. And coloring in it is amazing. I still can't get my OC tools to cooperate, I've messed with the settings so many times and man I don't even know. They still look crappy to me. XD Sai needs to be hamachi compatable. ): ... Then allegoriest would draw with me again. XD WE NEED TO WORK ON RPG SHIIIIIT. Petite Universe GO D:

Gonna go play tennis today with lotus_blade! But first I should eat. And change and stuff. I STILL can't find my deodorant. D: I am so stinky. Where did you go deodorant?

Oh poop. Forgot I wanted to check out a temp agency today. Hrm. Ah~ Today is pay day. Please let me have made over 200. D: My holiday pay is in there somewhere. ... I have a list of the days I get paid hanging from my desk. It looks kinda like this. (its fairly depressing):

Apr11- Before Trip
Apr25 - Before Trip
(May9 - Major Funds)
(May23 - Crap check)
Jun6 - Crap check

Somewhere in there is 2 car payments. too :33 exciting! (not really) May9 is not going to be a promising check. I have ONE DAY this week. th3newblack, I don't think we're gonna be able to like.. leave the house. My 5 dollars will have to last me a whole month. K? K.

Anyway, off to make myself some fried eggs, toast and sausage. Since I've been craving that since last night. >_> MAN! I spent 2 bucks yesterday ))): I was doing so good. CANT SPEND ANYMORE. *is srs about this shit right here*

Man, at work I always get mysterious cuts all over my hands. I was holding a mouse yesterday, and was like oh no you're bleeding!?! cuz I saw some on my hand where he was stepping, then I noticed some skin missing from my pinky and was like OH CRAP, I'M BLEEDING. it happens alot, I should be used to it now. HM.

OH RIGHT. EGGS. HELLS YEAH.

Srsly, I opened my client, and then wtf.

AH! It's leap year day~ Happy Leap Year Day ERBODY. It's also Anthy's birthday, kinda wanna do a picture for her. For those of you that don't like Anthy. TOO BAD. I DO. Not as much as Nanami but she's up on the list as far as the Utena females go. (Awright!! allegoriest/kittycow OC ANTHY SESSION TONIGHT GO!) Oh the porn... there will be porn. It's Anthy.

Also, talked to mom about SanFran trip, and she seems alright with it, as long as I CLEAN MY ROOM. I realize this as well, I'm tired of half the shit in here too. Especially that PILE. But I like having my stuff where I can access it @_@ Putting it in the attic is like D: oh noes~ Still gotta talk to daddy about the trip, guess I should before I get the ticket? I have til March20th for that price anyway. And if i get it now, there's like gonna be 20 bucks left for the next two weeks. Meep! STILL HAVE COMMISSIONS I COULD DO. I REALIZE THIS. ): Lina texted me this morning to say that her Mom's wedding is gonna be on the 5th. My plan is to come back the 4th (slightly cheeper prices on tickets ON a holiday) so I'm like HURR I'mma be so exhausted XD

Hours are slightly better at work, but still not enough if I'm trying to save for this trip. Oh what to do, what to do.

Put together the art I hadn't posted up here yet. Wtf its like a crapload. Need to put them up in separate posts so as not to kill people's browsers. God I haven't been active on dA in a long while. XD Srsly, I draw a fuckinglot, just none of it goes up there anymore.

... I still suck at Outbreak.

And I totally skipped this whole month of Project!Celebration. OOOOPS

I got one.
Now you get one.

I figured out my ftp server the other night thanks to th3newblack!!! So i will finally have the ability to make art posts yaaaaaaaaay! I decided for the time being, I'm just going to make content headers instead of filtering people, and that way you - my public - have the opportunity to choose to look or not. And

... whoa i blanked I thought i was writing an rp post for a min there. WHOO ...

Annnnnd. stuff. i dunno what I was going to say.

Have a celebratory pic:


its magical. and now i sleep

EDIT: Wanted to let you guys know... this is what MOST of my art is going to look like. XD I just realized this later. Most of my stuff is lulzy comics in this style. Its only every once in a while there is SRSPIC. I'm workin on that though :/

Alright, so for the most part it looks like you guys would like to see my work on my LJ. YAY! (except hisui_yui, FINE FINE, THATS FINE!!) I was trying to upload my stuff on the ftp server i have for a joint site my friend and I have (but haven't worked on.. AT ALL. So its just kinda sitting there) But I cant really figure it out. Once I do though, I'll probably put an art dump. It'll be in several posts, since its alot and I don't want to make everyone crash with it being all in one post.

It also looks like some of you want to be on filters. Given.. I am lazy. I may or may not make filters. (That question was there so i could contemplate it) But, I will not post anything unless its safe or under a cut, and above said cut there will be warnings about what kind of content is in side. Is that cool? Not cool? You guys still gonna make me do filters? (HAET YOU) I guess its fine... I should make efforts for that. I was just thinking that I kinda wanted the art posts public and maybe friend all my personal stuff in case I get watchers just here for the art... and don't really want them snoopin in my personal shiz. Then again, I haven't cared BEFORE. so why now, right? *SHRUG*

I'll see once I get everything together. Thank you all for your input and hopefully I'll have some nice art up for you guys soon! :3

Poll #1105547 ADD ART???
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 13

Would you like it if I added art to my LJ?

Would you want to be on a filter for content? (series/mature/yaoi/etc)

I'm delirious, so anything else you'd like to add/suggest? |D (comment for larger text area)

I have a resident evil icon made by ME. And YOU. DON'T.

Unless you're th3newblack...

David's so pritty. :3 Playing second mission on Outbreak tomorrow, swear to god >O

Alright, so SP was freakin awesome. And I agree with everyone saying that its probably a tribute to Tourette's Guy, because that was the first thing that struck me, even when I was just watching the previews and the ep helped to confirm that. I think COCK NOSE was my favorite outburst. I really hope Thomas comes back to stay. ;3; so cute.

So here's some art to celebrate!!

( Craig + Kenny/Stan )

I wasn't able to draw in like a week. ... IM SO HAPPY >O I knew my overruling anger wouldn't last long under the circumstances. I'm so glad southpark's back *WEEP*

EDIT: Oh yeah, did anyone else notice that Thomas' mom, in the first shot of her was holding an OKAMI GAME?!? I was like HAY! *POINT* O:

I must be joking. But I'm not... I wish my parents going out to have a good time did not involve me being stuck at home with a 3yr old that will NOT GO TO SLEEP. And I don't want to MAKE her go to sleep. Because if she gets all upset or arguing back, or something, then I'll just get frustrated. She is cute though, and talks so that's at least good. (kids who can't communicate annoy me in a different way)

But like... I'm freakin tired and I have an early shift tomorrow. Yeah. Would really like some sleep, and this chair hurts my ass. When my mom called me to do this "really big favor" for her, I got kinda pissed off. I was finally able to hang out with allegoriest, but had to cut it short. But when mom pulled that "OK, I see, your friends are more important than me, that's fine." And, because I, filled with guilt of not really doing anything around the house lately or spending time with her while dad was gone, reluctantly obliged. UGH.

I'm TIRED of working Saturday mornings. I would LIKE to go to Atomix SOME Friday night. And there was NO ONE I could give my hours to for tomorrow. I'm really ready to get out of the house for a while though. So I'm glad Oni-con is coming up, even if I can't see Rentre en Soi, or get a badge for the con (so that i DON'T spend monies in the dealers room/artists alley), or... like COSPLAY. (wah) I don't have money for a Ycon badge now that dad asked for a huge payment, and because the deadline is the 26th, which is before i get paid next. And even if i DID the commissions that everyone has kindly been giving me I wouldnt be able to make the amount needed to go to Ycon.

SO, choose to believe this or not, since I've been flaky about it. I have to apologize to caerfree and chiharu_octavia cuz I won't be able to hang. And Caer if you want to retract your commish, or lower the price you were paying for it, that's fine. I will love you no less. XD Most of all I have to apologize to th3newblack. I was looking forward to this more than you know... most of my friends can vouch for this. And I'm really sorry I had to let you down. D: Money's such a bitch, and its just... UGH, i can't find words to vent my frustration in not being able to visit your badass ghetto dancin' self. <333 I just hope we can make plans to meet again soon down the line.

*sigh* I just found out that my parents are going to take another hour+. I really wanted some SLEEP tonight. I have to get gas in the morning.

... my art's getting crappier. This is pissing me off. I wanted to try and start posting art in here, but I think I'm more embarrassed about putting things up here than on dA. I could really care less there, but here I feel expectations are higher. I dunno.

gonna go find something to do.
Really wanna show off my new icon, but LJ is dumm. NVM, I was the dumm one. Wrong file. Long Live Metronome. HARO!


[EDIT] this song makes me want to AMV Foster's just because of the title. e。e

... :3333333

I just got comments/favs on my Lazlo stuff from hot-choc, liek whoa. I had a happy fit, shut up, its awesome. I admire her cartooning skills (of which I had more of when I was 7 than i do now) and her Lazlo stuff is the shit. I was hoping for a long time she would notice my stuff and she diiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiid. *GLEEFUL SPIN* I was getting all "wah" because people don't comment on it (i've been spoiled lately on my sp stuff for getting comments) but now its totally worth it. teeee. :D

I'm so fucking back and forth with this Ycon thing. Seriously, don't listen to whatever I say about it until I either buy the plane tix, or the last weekend of October hits. Because only then will it be final. Koko you make it so hard to make a decision cuz ILUSM I REALLY WANNA GOOO~! (&stealmusicks)

Tomorrow I should just seriously sit down and do fucking commissions. (I keep saying this, but has it happened YET?) I probably have enough now to pay for quite a few expenses. Why am I so unmotivated to get money? I just want them to be GOOD. and WORTH IT to the buyer. Maybe I just don't have enough confidence in my stuff. D: I NEED TO!! I NEED TO BELIEVE! (you gotta do what? -- I gotta believe!)

Damn, guess I'm not playing P3 tonight either. XD I need to though, its been a few days.
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FUUUUUCK ITS AWESOOOOME. *skips off*

Augh, i feel depression closing in. STAY BACK! I have no want of you. And I feel an art crisis or something right now too. Which is weird, cuz I think I just drew something rather nice. :/ But it could all still stem from having a headache all freakin day and not being able to sleep and having not eaten in over 12 hours and blah blah blah. ( i really don't understand that part, I'm not even HUNGRY)

But its like, I wish i had an art project to stick to. As if it would all come together at the end to make something really nice. Help me feel like I can accomplish something. All my art is just this and that and here and there and nowhere, i just look at it all together and go ... what the fuck? Sure I like most of my pieces or whatever. But I don't have a technique, I've never felt like I've had a style. My OWN style. One people can look at and go oh yeah LINA totally drew that, because its completely unmistakable from anyone else. I'm missing something internally. Whether my mind to do the kind of works I want, the imagination, or the inspiration and even when i DO feel that, it turns into OK pieces, mediocre pieces, things that are similar to what I've done. I'd like to expand, but wtf would I do? I really wish I had just stuck with the part of me that drew cartoons instead of getting into the whole anime thing. Damn you Japan! Not that I don't love the style, not that I won't keep drawing it... I love it, its beautiful, there's still progress to be made even if i go that way. It's just... AUGH... i dunno. I'm stuck now, I don't know what else to say. BLAH.

Now for a different rant.
I haven't seen so many friends in so long. It's hard to find time to see them all. And I am not the one to plan things, so I don't call them, I don't invite them to hang out. I wait for them. I know this is my fault. But I hate being tugged in all directions too. I have so many wonderful friends, I wish I had all hours of the day to spend with them. But I don't and I can't and I make it hard for myself. I feel like I'm being neglectful. Like i have so much on my plate and whatever gets buried gets forgotten. But it DOESN'T. I KNOW whats there, and yet its just as easy for me to feel unmotivated about EVERYTHING. *pulls hair* I DUNNO! I DUNNO... this rant morphed into something else as well. *frustrated*

its times like this i wish i didn't miss kara so much. i miss sarah alot too lately. its hard to have best friends out of contact. Do i worry so much about thinking my friends feel unimportant because I fear it so much myself? Because I hate the thought of being forgotten? I hate that I can't do more... and I hate feeling like they're not doing more. I just want my friends, I want them back. ... Or just wish I knew what they were thinking.

None of this makes sense to me anymore, and now my head just hurts more than it did before. I wish it would stop raining here. I miss the sun.

And I tried to sing
But I couldn't think of anything
That was the hardest part

Everything I know is wrong
Everything I do just comes undone
And everything is torn apart

Ugh i just spent what felt like forever on this pic. It really wasn't. In fact I'm surprised how little time it took.

BUT I DEMAND YOU ALL LOOK AT IT.


Remy by ~kittycow on deviantART


thnx :3

Wouldn't life be so much greater if time just magically STOPPED while you were drawing? *sighs dreamily* I hate starting a project that I REALLY LIKE just to stop right in the middle because its getting late and I have to go to bed. *fume*

IF ONLY...

... :/ I also had another dream that I was on the House team and everyone else was gone and I just followed him around, like... everywhere. And I think I go to butt into a surgery like OMG NO DONT!!! DDD:

... more on today... later.

Um Um Um...

I was ready to write out an entry and now Im just kinda lost. I got distracted with lolcat sites and I'm trying very hard right now, not to write like that.

My job is going pretty awesomely. I think my feet have gotten used to standing for so long. Though they've about had it at the end of the day. I'm not very big about helping the customers. I mean, i DO, its just I don't know nearly as much as all the other employess, so its just alot of, "D: Um I'm kinda new, but I think so-and-so will know what you need." I'm trying to pick up as much as I can, but with so many different animals with different needs, and me, only being able to keep my cats alive, most of the time I'm like UR DUR? I'm sure I'll catch on though. And I wanna be a specialist~ Small Animals is prefered, but you know, whatever we need. Man though, I took a look at those books and whoa. Lots of stuff to read.

Its still sad when the animals die. One of our rats did the other day (BTW, i LOVE the rats. They are the cutest.) And it was our only large one. And he was like.. coughing up blood. D: it was totally sad. We thought he might've bit into the glass of the cage, but there wasn't any evidence of that, plus he's well-mannered, so I guess he was just sick. :( buu. These hamsters we currently have are cracking me up though. There's this one little wheel in their cage and 4 or 5 of them try to get on at the same time. ... really wish I could find my camera. :/ I dunno WHAT i did with it. Probably just need to clean my room... wash my sheets. I have 3 more days off to get some shit done. I plan on it.

Only a few more weeks til Jrock fest! O: I plan on telling my parents of the excursion when I get paid and can be like :D HAI DAD HERE IS BEING MONIES. BTWGOINGTOCALIBBSKLUVYUU. Whoo, I know they're not going to like the idea... but yaknow, non-refundable and all that. I SHOULD have enough from this check left over to make it. But who knows? And I THINK i'll get paid again the thursday we leave, so maybe I'll have that too? :3

I should go to sleep, even though I napped for quite a few hours. AH SARAH WOKED ME UP WITH NYUUZU. Dunno if i can tell you guys yet, D: but i'll ask. omg.

Been wanting to draw, but I think I'm in a slump. AH! E-chan, sorry i pooped out on you tonight. D: I just crashed and didn't think I was going to sleep that long.

I think I came up with a passible Stan/Cartman idea before I went to sleep. And kinda remember enough of it to work from it. I dunno WHY i wanna do a doujin with them so bad when my otp is so Cartman/Kyle D: Jew/Nazi hatelove ftw. I guess like... 14 or 15 for the ages too? Gotta work on my style! OMG its freakin changing again and I hate it. I can't do eyes right now. Its pissing me off. I don't know why that shit changes so much.

OH! I remember the whole reason for this post.
SPIDERMAN3.
Its rawks. Don't let anyone tell you different. Just make sure you go with someone who has fun at movies because omg. XD SO LULZ. I went with Matt, Aricia, Jess, Pedlo and Randis. Randis is da bess. XD We're retarded, and it was great. and wtf emo peter dancing? I wanna see it on IMAX SO BADLY. God... Eddie... Venom. Toph was so great. XD

D: wtf mom. comin in here like you own the place. I TOOKED A NAP I CAN'T SLEEP. (lies, shh.)

Ugh fine, this is ghey now. D: Going to sleep.

I haven't been posting much lately. ODD. I should really be taking advantage of what little I have left for my paid account. I think 5 more days? I never did a pretty layout. D: I suck. It was all for the icons. How am I going to live with just SIX ICONS?!?! Just kill me now, seriously.

I'm bored. That's why I'm here. allegoriest came over yesterday and I love hanging out with her. XD Its crazy fun. We get really REALLY retarded. I can hardly remember the crap we come up with or laugh about because its stupid little things and its so much that its hard to keep track of. We escaped the house out of hunger and sought out food. We <3 Cream Gravy. We drew and painted and listened to musicks and stayed up late. Then we got up today with the full intent to go looking for loli and dandy clothes, but omg traffic was crap. WTF. I had to take all these back ways, and by the time we got to any stores they were closing up. It was dumb. We should've just gone to see a movie. Next time we know. u__u

I really wanted to get a chance to hang out with hisui_yui & kyouchuu but it just didn't happen. *SIGH* I don't really get a spring break since work and stuff. buu. And I get up too late the days I don't go to work to do anything ANYWAY. Yeah I suck guys, its okay to say it. e__e;

Oh man, what day was it... Friday? (it feels like its been so long already. I keep thinking its monday tomorrow) I had a minor breakdown/depression. I'd gotten up late (like usual) and mom kinda got after me. What am I gonna do with my life? What about these bad sleeping habits I'm getting into? What about school, I'm not saving. I need a new job, I should just quit this one and blah blah blah That usually doesn't phase me. They tell me all the time. Not that I don't think about it. I DO. ALL THE TIME. I just don't do anything about it. So anyway, i went to get gas and I was thinking about all the stuff she was saying. And I locked my fucking keys in the car. Thankfully I wasn't far and the awesome guy in the gas station let me use the phone. My mom had to come and drop off my keys. And wow, I just thought about how fucked I'd be if I left them in the car when it wasn't spring break. But then again, mom wouldn't've been home to give me a life-talk and I wouldnt've had it to think about while I was at the gas station... so maybe its irrelevant. So she comes by and gets after me more, How could you do somethng like this? I was outside and almost didn't hear the phone! You NEVER leave the car without your keys! HURDUR MOM. This is the first time i've ever locked my keys in the car. So she left and I went off to work and I just felt incredibly stupid and hopeless and I had to fight crying because I wanted to really bad. Then I get those I'm not amounting to anything thoughts in my head, and wonder why my existance matters so much anyway. But when I got to the office Lina and Crissy were being silly and playing with an accordian, and it really cheered me up, and I realize I can at least make it if I have awesome friends like them. I still need to take care of the rest though... beh.

Thankfully Melinda is the fucking MAN, and she made me apply for this front desk job at a nearby medical center and said I could be blind and do this job. Plus she has connections with different hospitals and county courts and stuff, so if anyone could get me a job its her. She totally rocks. <3 I hope I get it. I really need the money. It aways feels really good to have the money to pay my dad for the car.

I've been pumping out the art though. And that makes me feel really good, at least I'm being productive SOMEWHERE in my life. Thank you south park~ <3 :3 you are love and i love you and you're made of love~ LOOOOVE. I played with watercolors and I liked dem. :3 But certainly no where near proficent. Oh god, I murdered Tweek. I shoulda just whited his square out. It makes me cringe. D:

I really, really, REALLY wanna go camping and just go away for a weekend or a few days or something. CAMPIIIINNNNGAH.

... I dunno what else. D: I really want someone to cuddle with. My existance is becoming lonely. And when I think about it, I wonder how good of a girlfriend I would be. I mean I have no idea. I guess no one else really knows either. o: harumph~

At a crossroads
la la la
where to go to
la la la
think i'll sit and
la la la
watch it all pass by